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( 2:23 AM )
Dear World, You are not going to believe what I did last night. Ok, maybe you will believe it. But I don't believe it! I went over to Jon's house yesterday and I just now am getting home, that should tell you something. I didn't intend to sleep with him when I went over there. but he kind of jumped me when I was unexpecting and after a brief moment of shock I heard myself saying in my head, "Well this is kind of fun" so I just went along with it. Then I slept over. Except, well, we didn't sleep for a long time. You know what we did? We played computer! He is really good, he has all this equipment and has done like CD covers and band posters and lots of indie rock band websites, also he knows how to edit video and make Flash things. He has one of those cool tablet things that you can draw on. It's so much easier than trying to draw with a mouse!!! So he showed me a few things and then he totally let me mess around in Photoshop till I ran out of energy. So I decided since I am Wiccan and I am dabbling in otherworldly affairs, I should make my picture a little more psychedelic. So I did! I just did it by messing around and seeing what happened. I spent like four hours on it!! Then I went to bed next to Jon. He was already sound asleep. I considered going home because I couldn't believe I had sex with him. Because he still has to do my web site and now it's going to be all weird! What if he actually reads this? Then I won't be able to talk about all the other people I make out with because that's not polite. I guess I'll just tell him that he's not allowed to read this. And I can threaten him with... hmm, I don't know. I was going to say "withdrawal of affection" but come to think of it, he might not even care. What if he's not even into me, and now he turns into one of those grump guys who has to pretend he never met me? Well if he does that I am going to call him up and tell him that he doesn't have to worry because I don't like him anyway and I was only using him for his art skills. Ok, and his equipment and his web design services. Ok also I bummed a couple cigarettes off him. And what else... i don't know. It feels messy though. Like I have not seen the end of this. I wonder what he is thinking right now? Maybe he's sitting on his bed playing his guitar and making up a song about me. I bet he'll never admit it but he'll write down the lyrics in his diary. Do boys keep diaries? Well I hope he is thinking about me because he should, because he acted like he was into me. Except all guys do that until they ejaculate and then they are grumps. Well Jon wasn't a grump so maybe he really liked being with me... I am going to have to sleep on this. If I can sleep. I am completely wired! You know what we did today? We went to SF on BART and went to the pet store on Ocean Avenue (we took Muni there and it almost ran over someone!) and I bought two baby rats! They are both girls. I named them Willow and Tara. Jon said he would help me train them and I hope he comes through because when I do have my band, I want the rats to have their own little platform and they are going to play tambourine! I am sure we can teach them. They will get snacks every time they hit the tambourine right and then when they see a tambourine placed in front of them they will instantly associate it with yummy snacks and they will pick it up and play. So now it's after 2 am and I haven't really made a rat house yet. They are in Henry's old house for now. I hope that Henry isn't mad at me for getting new pets so soon... but if he loved me he'd want me to have companionship, right? Plus, I think once a frog goes to heaven then he is filled with brilliant light and pure love and has no jealous feelings any more.
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