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 Saturday, July 06, 2002
( 1:08 PM )
Dear World, Wow, a lot has changed since 8/24/02. I think I may have had an epiphany... I think that's the word. Where you have a sudden realization that sheds light onto everything and you realize that you've been in a complete fog your entire life? Well right word or no, that is what has happened to me. It started with the band. (The band which is actually coming together!!!) I started actually learning about Wicca, instead of just seeing it on TV. I found out that I don't have to join a coven, and it's not even about the "dark arts." It's about really good, cool stuff! It's about really using your power as a woman. You can use it in a positive way or a negative way, or you can just waste it. That's what I think I've been doing with my Womanly Wiles all this time. Wasting them. So the big realization I had was that I don't have to pretend the world isn't going to hell in a handbasket or that lots of people aren't fucked up, in order to enjoy myself and have sex with whoever I want and be in a really rockin' band. I can use my power to achieve what I really want, and also to add positive energy to the world. I should not be casting spells on boys to make their penises fall off though. That's kind of a negative-energy thing (Though I think it's still OK to use my magic to make them get dizzy and fall down, because falling down is funny, and funny is good for the world.) I think it's also OK to draw upon my power to win the shake-off. But I don't think I should use it to get "things" for myself or make people behave in certain ways. Anyway, the other thing was that I didn't know how I was going to pay my rent since I got fired. I have decided that it is better for the world as a whole if I get money from my dad for a while, so that I have time to look for a job that is actually meaningful to me. I have realized that if I sell my soul and accept a crappy job just because it's a job and I need money, that is a waste of my brilliance and wiccanly womanly power!! I actually managed to sell Dad on this, and he's supporting me now... he says it doesn't matter anyway, the world will probably blow up before he gets to spend any of it on his retirement or whatever. Yay dad! Hurray for Dad! Which reminds me I was going to explain about him. I promise to do it in my next entry here.

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